Cera, not so plain and tall

Saturday, April 5, 2008

So, I'll go ahead and warn you now I'm not in a very good mood. So this will be a venting post. It's funny that this comes out of my own mouth (well finger tips) but I almost wish everyone looked the same. That way everyone would stop being so dang wrapped up in how they look. I'm sick of people saying 'oh don't show that to anyone I don't like how I look". Or they don't want their picture taken. I mean I can't say that I haven't done it but I'm trying to deal with it and I just wish everyone would as well. We might not be the happiest people on the planet but we'd feel a lot better. There are no 'ugly' people on this planet, only ugly personalities. If you are a good hearted person it will show, and you will be beautiful. But if you're shallow and a 'witch' then that to me makes you hideous. And if you're worried I'm gonna show a unflattering picture where you might have a double chin or show a roll or maybe a night when we had too many drinks.. maybe you change that or don't do it. And I mean that for a lot of people who I take pictures of. Everyone should stop being so worried about how they look and start enjoying whats going on around them. Life is too short. I can already tell time is starting to fly by as I get older and its only going to faster. Why waste it on worrying about how you look. And I'm not saying don't bother putting on make up before you go out or looking in the mirror to make sure you look alright because that is what makes us feel good. Just don't worry that you might not look like Angelina in the picture you took with you and your friends, or cousins or sisters because all that picture is, is to represent a really good time you had and that you should remember it. And like I said I'm obviously guilty of it too.. but now I'm just so "what's the point" about it. I'm beautiful in my own way and I really think everyone is too.

Also, the reason I picked Janeane for Kate is because I think she's very unique in the way that Kate is. Also I think their beauty is not any very day beauty. It's one that if you passed them by, you'd pause and think about them for a moment as if they were a beautiful art piece you'd never seen before. So, I am sorry if shes more dull and not a pretty as the other people you mentioned Kate, but for me it meant something.

There's something else that I'm very not happy about. That would be my weight. Obviously I've been very over weight for quite some time but now it has just gone too far. A few years ago I was at a theme park, can't remember which but its no matter, however I got on a roller coaster and they couldn't put down the restraint bar because of my belly. I just said that I would get off. As I waited for my party some little kids called me fatty and what not. I just shrugged it off and said roller coasters are overrated. But now my weight is just too much. On the flight to go see my beautiful nephew I had to ask for a extender for the seat beat. I have never had to do that before. So, I've told myself that I had to lose enough weight, that when I go see my cousin (whom I'm so proud of) graduate in May, I could use only ONE seat belt! And maybe hopefully be a little more comfortable in the seats. So, please pray and wish me luck!

I hope this hasn't hurt anyones feelings I didn't mean it to, I just want everyone to be happy with themselves... me included. I love you all!

posted by Cera at 3:55 PM -

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