Cera, not so plain and tall

2010-05-02T01:39:00.000-07:00

So, I'm not so good with keeping quiet, been that way since I was born, literally. I have to say my feelings are really hurt right now. I understand I am not a big part of Sammy's life, but I think about him daily. I check his blog at least once a day, mention when he does cute things or has cute pictures (which is all of them of course). But it really hurt to know that I (Mom and Kate too, but mostly me) wasn't part of the group that Sammy can pick out of a picture. I realize it's a very small thing, but it really hits home right now. I already get upset knowing I wont be in his life like I am with my other nieces and nephew and I hate the thought that I'll always just be some aunt, who sees him every couple of years. It hurts to know I'm never thought about. He wont remember me when I come to visit him next, he won't remember that he used to laugh and smile at me. I just really hate the whole situation. There's a lot of other things I would like to say, but since this family is big on secrets, I guess I'll keep mine.

For my Mommy

2010-02-06T20:43:00.000-08:00

My life is my sister's kids at the moment. I watch them after school until Kate gets home and that's pretty much all I do. I want to start my photography business, but I'm holding my breath for Anna in the fall. I don't have much else to say, maybe I'll let my pictures speak for me! (haha)

OH! And I would like to say how happy I am for my big brother getting Teacher of The Year! He is so amazing and he deserves it!

(It's three different days, the first ones are the most recent, I believe just this past week, then I think there are some from January or maybe December, and the last two are from the school pictures)

Lots o' Pics

2009-04-14T01:37:00.000-07:00

Here's a whole crap load of pictures haha. Most of them are the kids cause they are just so dang cute!!! Oh and belated happy Easter!!

Okay, well this isn't the kids obviously but I just think it's so pretty! these wooded area pictures are from the little park next to City Hall.. when you go in there I swear it's like a whole nother place!

This one is my favorite. It makes me want to go curl up with a book

Some pretty flowers on a tree that were blooming

Here's Kaylee walking on this stone wall thingie next to the creek

Gracie also walking on the stone wall with help from Kate.. 'What's that on her arm?!' you ask? Yeah she broke it. No more 'snake' stunts on the bike please!

Grace looking at the creek

Gracie and Kaylee sitting on the wall

Kate of course, looking beautiful as always!!

Mason

Gracie

Kaylee

My two favorite nieces!!

Mason rockin' this photo!!!

Kaylee again

Mason has a great serious face for photos

Gracie running towards me

Doin' a little magic

Wish I could curl up like that!!

And here's Gracie with her sling and cast. Poor baby :(

Easter Time!!!

Gracie and Mason trying to find the last of the eggs

Kaylee pondering the meaning of 'egg'... okay yeah I don't know hehe

I did this picture a few different ways and couldn't decide what i liked best so I posted them all heh

Mom and the girls doing deviled eggs. Why are they called that?!

kaylee reaching for an egg.

Mason sitting down.. dur!

Gracie counting her loot

Kaylee counting hers.

Kaylee throwing confetti from the confetti eggs.. I didn't get to do any :/
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Mason doing his confetti thing.

I have to mention: When I told Mason and Kaylee to throw it together on the count of three, after I said three Mason quickly threw his in the air and then hugged his sister. I just thought it was so cute and sweet!

Here's the awesome lamb cake Mom, Mason and I all helped decorate. I think the girls did the grass too. It was a joint effort.

Poor lamby...never had a chance!

what IS it with this month??!

2009-03-27T14:30:00.000-07:00

Okay so lets see.. a lot of crappy stuff has happened this month! And so I am declaring this month the "Month O' Pain"! I don't even know where to start. Um, well Grace broke her little arm on Tuesday trying to do 'the snake' on her bike (which is apparently where you weave back and forth on it, my guess is she leaned a little too far left) and then the next day I took her to Kates work to get a pink cast on it, and of course she was flopping it around and just like.. stressing me out with it haha. Then the next day, I came out of my bedroom and stepped on a board I use to keep Big Boy out of the hallway and felt a pain in my foot. I yelled out "OW" and mom was heading to the gate between the kitchen and the front room to find out what happened. Well I looked down at my foot, trying to figure out where the little splinter (I assumed) was in my foot, when I saw a huge (okay huge cause I thought it was a small splinter) flat red disk stuck to my foot. I don't know if seeing it made my mind register what it was or if it was the movement of my foot but it started to send a jolt of horrific pain through my foot. So, because I'm a silly girl, I started screaming (from the pain and the fact that I had a thumbtack through my foot)and yelling "GET IT OUT!!" and my Super-Mommy came to the rescue and pulled it out quickly. Only I think when it was pulled out it tore something because the pain I experienced before it was out was like.. nothing at all. Anyway, now I feel a little silly writing all that out just to say I had a thumbtack in my foot, but it was like a total ordeal okay!! Anyway and so today I was passing by my aunts house and my Aunt Shirley was just getting out of the car from work and so I stopped to say hello. Then she tells me Auntie has a new puppy so of course I had to go see him! SOOO CUUUTTTEEE!!! a total mix of different breeds but soo cute! and so I find out my poor Aunt Linda has been in the hospital for like 3 weeks with a horrid staph infection (MSRA I believe is the name) and she just got home. And then Aunt Inez or Great Aunt Inez had broken her shoulder while Aunt Linda was in the hospital (she usually takes care of her) so Auntie goes to do something for Aunt Inez at her home while shes in the hospital and she ends up cutting her two middle fingers and smashing her pointer finger in the garage door I believe. So the two middle fingers have little stitches in them :( OOH and then yesterday Mom and I were driving down Josey to go to Sonic and we were fixing to pass Kroger when these stupid cars in front of us were driving like 15 mph. Then I see that there is like cops swarming this house at the end of the street only.. it wasn't some cops.. it was like Dallas SWAT TEAM!! And I could hear them yelling to the people inside and theres broken windows and smoke bombs every where. So everyone on the opposite side of the road(the side I'm on) are going slow and I'm like HELLO DO YOU WANT TO BE SHOT?! and they had completely closed off the side they were on. Then, on the same side as the first house, on the next street they had like a tank/hummer SWAT car in the yard and more SWAT people and more broken windows... IT WAS INSANE!!! and this just like 10 streets away from me! So of course after we get our food I go back the way I came and they have like 3 guys handcuffed on the grass and then like 10 more at the first house I saw. Mom said it was probably drugs.. I agree... And they are trying to make Farmers Branch a "Highland Park" HAHAHHAHA.. anyway I have some pics I wanna post but now I have to make dinner so I'll post them later... HOPE YOU ENJOYED!!!

..ten years later!

2009-03-18T22:55:00.000-07:00

Yes it has been a while!! I had updated sometime near Christmas, talking about Thanksgiving, but something happened and it didn't save or something I can't remember. So I got mad and haven't blogged since, heh! But I am back!! I've also 'been in hiding' as my friends tell me. I got a little depressed and still kind of am, but that's okay!! Things can only get better when your at the bottom! haha. Anyway, I really don't have too much exciting news. I have two cousins who are thinking of moving to Dallas, so I am happy about that. I hope it works out for them both because it's no good for them where they are. OH! And also, I am a 'mother' again! I sort of adopted a little bundle of joy named Big Boy. He is part (or very possibly full) pit bull. He is just absolutely the cutest thing ever! He totally stole Moms heart as well. He is now about 9 or 10 weeks old and I got him when he was about 7 weeks. My friend Julie decided she had to get away and we were going to go to Washington cause, um, yeah, but Mom said she wasn't going to be happy so I didn't want her mad at me so we went to Oklahoma where we both have family about an hour and a half away from each other. She sort of met someone who found Big Boy when his mother was kicking him away from her house (he was a stray) and Julie said she wanted to take him back to her daughters. Then when we were at the hotel he pooped (he's young!) and suddenly she didn't want him anymore. Then her friend said 'lets leave him here.' And if you know me you know I could never let that happen. It takes a lot of self control not to pull over every time I see a stray and take them home with me. So anyway, a long story not so short, I got him. I was going to find a good home for me but hey! what better place than my own! I couldn't bare to see him go. I was his from the moment he looked up at me with his little puppy eyes in the back seat of Julies truck. He is currently half wrapped around my leg asleep. TOO CUTE!! Anywho, I think that's all I have to say for this post. And so here come the pictures!!

I've been attached to the hip with my photoshop. I LOVE IT!!!! I would give up all my other addictions for this addiction! HAHA.. Okay maybe not Twilight but anyway...

Here is an ugly picture of me that I would never post except I want everyone to see how awesome I am at photoshop HEHE
BEFORE:

AFTER:
I know I know, amazing!

And here is my FIFTH baby, Big Boy. Yes I now have 4 dogs and a cat...
This is when I know he's tired!

I tried to show him what it felt like when he bites (hes teething.. UGH) someone.. he totally couldn't of cared less!!

SUCH a mamma's boy :)

excuse the fat I haven't photoshop'd me out of these pics yet..

Here's some uber recent pics I took at 'the photo shoot' with the kiddos

This was at 'the park with the lion' as the kids say, or next to Oran Good.. hope i spelled that right!

This was supposed to kinda look like an old photo.. i love those kinds!

Ever since I got photoshop I've wanted to do an angel or fairy.. ya know something with wings.. and finally I just happen to get this pose and it was PERFECT.. you see a lot of this pic in various forms!

yeah the way I photoshop'd this pic is kind of weird but for some reason I liked it.. plus its a purply pink which is her favorite colors I believe.

those are shorts!

Mason has a really good serious face for pictures. I kind of want to dress him in cowboy clothes and hat I think it'd be really good, what do you think?!

Oh I forgot to mention that Kaylee was my assistant for the shoot. She suggested a lot of the poses you see! very smart! she might be a great photographer for a mag or something some day!

Okay these last ones are my pride and joys! my masterpieces if you will.

Here's miss Gracie. The background I got off google images and the leopard too. Made the light coming down me self and the coloring and yada yada.. my friend said the leopard didn't look right there, what do you think about that?!

These of Kaylee were an all day and part night event. I can't even begin to tell you how much I changed with just the background! notice anything different about her foot?

This would be my favorite one but I think the light coming in from the sun on the left is too much (the pic came that way)

And lastly, because I'm a total TWERD!! (THANKS A LOT KATE) Here is my sort of Ode to Twilight. nothing fancy at all just a little thing I put together in 30 minutes.

HOPE YOU ENJOYED!! GIVE ME COMMENTS ON THINGS YOU LIKED AND THINGS I NEED TO CHANGE PLEASE I WOULD REALLY APPRECIATE IT!!!

Only a holiday behind...

2008-12-24T12:47:00.000-08:00

I found the old post that didn't get posted.. apparently the pictures didnt make it, ill have to repost those...

Yes so, I am a whole holiday behind on posting pictures and updating. I had a great Thanksgiving though, and I took lots of pictures! ( of course) I got to spend time with my Aunt Linda and Sally and sometimes even Isaac was there too! I didn't get to spend as much time as I would of liked with my brother, sister and nephew but I don't think all the time in the world would be enough! But overall it was a great holiday. When I wasn't with the family I spent my time outside in the wonderful weather reading my favorite book series and Sally often hung out with me. 'Course the wonderful weather ended up getting me really sick the day before we left for home. I think I might be about over it now, thank goodness!! Also a couple of weeks ago, my brother presented me with a wonderful opportunity. I sent my sister and him some pictures of Sammy from Thanksgiving and he thinks I should go to a photography school in Oklahoma. It is the same one that my talented cousin Shanda went to. The more I think about it the more excited I get! Photography is always something I love to do, so hey! why not make some money on it too!! hehe But of course there are a couple of things that I'm worried about. One being tuition money. The 9 month program is around 10 grand. JD told me I could probably get financial aid, but who knows with my luck! Also I have to get my GED in order to go, which of course I completely understand. I've actually been working on my GED book since I've decided I really want to go. Also, I'd really like for my cousin Anna to go with me. She has a much better eye and creative mind than I do, so I think this would be perfect for her! Also I think it would be great for us to do it together. We could back each other up and help each other out. But as life goes, I'm not sure any of this will happen. But keep your fingers crossed for me! Well I think my rambling has come to and end. I've got to get ready for The Aunts Christmas Eve party!! But of course what kind of blogger would I be without adding pictures!!

Here is Sally With Kilo, the neighbors dog. We’re totally gonna steal her one day!

Here’s Isaac…hunky eh?! Back off girls this is my baby cousin!!!

I thought this was just too cute not to post..

Well this one was obviously photoshop’ed but here is my little cousins Krislyn and Josh playing on a swing that I’m sure my Uncle George made.

Here is a truck that I believe is Uncle Georges.. either way I just love classic cars/trucks.. This picture looks pretty old huh!?

Here’s Uncle George and little Garrett (I hoped I spelled that right!)

You know I love animals!! That horse doesn’t seem to like his picture taken though!

AWWW Yes, that is my little Sammy!

Here’s a big group of the family all getting ready for some flag football.

Doesn’t he warm your heart by just looking at him?!! He’s playing with his big cousin Sally.

He went down that slide once and we couldn’t get him off of it! J

Aw, I could just eat him up! Such a handsome little man!

I hear he just took his first steps after our visit in Oklahoma…he’s growing up already L

And here is the next day when we went to the lake to climb mountains..

This pictures a little blurry sorry! Beautiful family though if I may say…

And what would a trip to a sandy lake be if I didn’t have a cheesy I heart You picture?!

Here’s Sally and Aunt Shirley after some sand wrastlin’

Krislyn and Josh have no fear in climbing huge rocks!! …course I did hehe

Here is Shanda talking to little Garrett..

And here is Krislyn, Josh and Trey climbing up one of the smaller mountains. Photoshop’ed too of course!

WE EVEN SAW DEER!!! It was great.. James was sweet enough to pull up for me.. yet I still got a blurry picture…

HAPPY THANKSGIVING!!!

2008-11-26T09:55:00.000-08:00

Well, I thought I'd quickly update my blog before I head off to Altus Oklahoma to visit for Thanksgiving. I'm meeting JD and Jamie and my little "Mumble" there. And not to sound rude to anyone else attending Thanksgiving dinner, because I am still excited to see them as well, but my little Sammy is the real reason I'm going to Altus. I really feel bad about leaving Mom, Kate, Mason, Kaylee, and Gracie because it seems I'm always gone on the holidays. A little while ago I was packing in front of Kaylee and Gracie and they asked me why I'm leaving and grew very sad when I said I was leaving for Thanksgiving. They then went on to make puppy dog eyes at me and tell me they don't want me to go. It was almost too hard to resist. I would stay but I hardly will get to spend time with Sammy growing up like I have my older neices and nephew that live here. It's hard having to 'choose' who I want to spend the holidays with. I always wish I had the money for a big house that could hold everyone in it, and a bedroom for each!! Bet people like Donald Trump take these sort of things for granted, ay? Anyway I'm very excited to see everyone in Altus and very sad to leave others here.

On a lighter note, I've grown to be obsessed with the Twilight series. I've already read the first two books starting on friday night and am now about to start the THIRD on the way to Altus. The movie, in my eyes, was amazing!! I enjoyed it so much I am going to buy it the day it comes out. Which, for those that don't know me, is just... an amazement! I never buy movies that are over 5 dollars. Oh, and all the blame can be put on my sister!!! GOOD JOB KATE!!

Well, I hope everyone has a wonderful Thanksgiving and drive safe! I love you all!!

why hello!

2008-11-04T09:05:00.000-08:00

So yes it has been a while...again. I've been kind of busy working on this garage sale that I've wanted to do for the past two months. Hopefully this weekend will be the real deal. There's also a lot of drama going on which makes it even harder. I'm still hanging out with Heather almost every day. She just had her 23rd birthday. To take the stress away from all the drama I've been working with Photoshop a lot. It has been come my new love! I've found lots of fun sites online that have tutorials and it's so fun to see how they turn out. Well I have more I wanted to blog about but now I must start my cleaning before I have to go pick up me madre from work. But of course, because I can't blog without them, here are some pictures!! These are things that I have been working on in Photoshop. Let me know what you think of them!!

Okay, so.. Here we have a old western wanted poster. Yeah I don't know the guy but I didn't really have to many cowboy pictures in my files. But I must mention that I made the whole paper. It was once just a little white canvas on photoshop. I don't think it's too bad, eh?

Now this one is a little hard to see, you might have to click on it to make it bigger. But here is Moi! and if you look closely you can see my little nieces and nephews that make up my face. I can't remember the artists name that did stuff like this, but you know who I mean.

Here we have my nieces and nephew on T.V.!!!! Aren't they cute?! This was last year on the way to the state fair when we sat in traffic for like 5 hours.

Now I don't know these people either but I couldn't find anything that would fit a wine glass as nicely as these lovely people. I think I might use this for my wedding pics or something..tis cute!

The tutorial on this one had much better pictures to work with but, I still like it!

I like the thought of this one but for some reason it just doesn't work very well. The tutorial had a gorgeous model and in the reflection was palm trees... I guess it just worked for her.

Our favorite basketball (and now football!) player MASON!! I sort of "blacked out" the rest of the picture leaving just he's cool medal he won. GOOD JOB Mase.

Here is Miss Kaylee. She won Student of The Month Last year. I think perhaps seeing her on T.V. here is just a preview of what is to come of our little movie star. heh.

My little Gracie Goo, I turned her into a weaved basket! haha. I love this picture of her, well the real one, she looks like a little model.

Yes...this is scary.. hopefully not just because its me... but I'm proud of this one.. 'cept the eyes. still working on those. I themed my costume for Halloween off of this. T'was pretty good if I say so meself.

Now these are just some pictures I wanted to include.

Here is my Heather in our 50 cent mustache we bought. FUNNY!!!

And here I am.. I rock the 'stache...mmmkay?!

Here is our little angels Girlie and Cotton. Don't worry I don't have another dog, Girlie is Heathers.

And here is my little rascal of a god-daughter Madison. This was at Halloween in the park and she had (obviously) just got her face painted.

Mason's football game

2008-10-09T00:03:00.001-07:00

Yeah I forgot to add the pictures of Masons game. Not to sound big headed but I think I did a pretty good job heh!

Here's Mason getting ready to hike the ball!

Mason standing around because the ref threw a flag for the billionth time

Kaylee on the rail watching her big brother play. She's our little cheerleader. She loves to do all the cheers when the cheerleaders do them. Maybe next year Aunt Sarah and Uncle Bubba can pay for her to wear a uniform haha

Here is Gracie taking pictures of her big brother. And there's a part of Kate!

Probably another flag...

Here is the same pic with a close up of Mase.

Here is a little video I got. To me it's kind of hard to see where Mason comes from, but just look for the # 33!

Now that I look at it I believe he is the first one that is tackling him... GO MASE!!

Okay and by the way how does my new blogger picture thanger look? It's a wig... I was going for Bettie Page. Well her hair anyway haha.

i'm so happy yet guilty

2008-09-30T01:03:00.001-07:00

So I found out some great news, my boy will be back on Feb. 4th 09 which is a wed.!! SO HAPPY SOO SOOO HAPPY.

But I also feel really bad. When I saw Kate this weekend I said something really mean that I could tell either hurt her or made her really mad. I didn't mean to but I just get really hurt when she can't hang out with me or us. I've been having lots of issues the past couple of weeks and I just feel alone now. I was crying when Mom got back to the car and I told her I felt alone. I lost my Dad which I don't think there could be a bigger Daddy's girl than me (I'm still a mommys girl too though!), and with that I just about lost my brother because I know its too hard for him to come here and I don't get to go see him that often. My best friend is mad at me and seems like he doesn't want to get over that, my boyfriend has been gone for almost three months and now my sister is even too busy to hang out with me.. I just feel very alone. And I know its noones fault because things just happen but I'm just sad about it all right now. But I am very sorry Katie you know I love you and I never want to make you upset and now im getting all teary eyed just thinking about it.

I LOVE YOU ALL!

whew!!

2008-09-17T20:38:00.000-07:00

Wow I didn't realize just how long its been!! So of course a lot has happened. Gosh, I really don't know where to begin!! haha. My friend Heather, who I've known just about 11 years now!, has come back up to Dallas from Corpus for a extended stay and we've been hanging out a lot. I missed her SO much! My friends Ronny and Isabel have been staying with us for a while now. They both lost their jobs and Mom was sweet enough to let them stay in the garage heh. OH! I have a new addition to my little ones. I have a 5 year old toy poodle named Cotton. SWWEEETT as can be. I actually gave her a mohawk today hehe.. No matter what Mom says she looks adorable. My friend Heather came up here with her and didn't really want her and I just thought she was the best so I had been trying to get Mom to agree to let her stay. Then one day Heather calls and tells me she has to take her to the pound (she has a potty problem and her Mom has lots of carpet..so...yeah...) so she brings Cotton over and Mom just fell in love with her. So I'm very excited about her, and all my babies get along fabulously with her! Hhhmmm, lets see what else is there? A lot will be happening in February, besides the best day of all. (my birthday DUH!) My baby Jesus will be out Feb. 10th we believe (he was naughty) and then my cousin Nichole will be having her baby towards the end of February early March. And I know this is a little lame but I am SO excited about it: The Sims 3 WILL BE OUT!! I believe on Feb. 19th. I'm addicted to all things Sims, its sad! OH and Mom now has HEARING AIDS!!!!!! Unbelievable I know! They work pretty darn well too! I can whisper to her now and she doesn't say "Huh? You got my bad ear!" hehe. I'm so happy for her, and some what for me too! I get irritated easily when I have to repeat myself a bunch of times, and I know it's not her fault, but now it's just amazing how well she can hear! I love whispering things to her. I'm a dork I know. Well I can't really think of anything else really important to tell all of you. I might be going back with Heather to Corpus, I'm excited about that!! Not so excited about the bus ride home though! Has anyone ever taken a long bus ride? I'm gonna need lots of batteries!! heh

Here is Heather with her dog Girlie (boy does she act like it!)

Here is my little Cotton!! I love her ears! this is way before her mohawk.

This is Cotton with her ears back haha. Does anyone know how to get rid of the brown/red stuff on her? my friend said just cut it but i just don't think thats a good idea..it's too close to her eyes for me!

sad face

2008-07-13T19:22:00.001-07:00

So I'm a little bummed out...okay REALLY bummed out because I won't be seeing Jesus for a while... well... not without a phone chord and plate glass window... long story don't want to talk about it... anywho... So to make myself feel better I will now upload pictures... thanks for reading and looking at my photos :)

Here is Anthony and I at the 4th of July on Grapevine Lake...it was FUN!

PREEETTTYYY lake

See theres sand... okay its rocks!

I got bored and did some photoshopping.. oh and I have on some blue contacts

and heres another one

I know, I know...

2008-06-04T06:27:00.000-07:00

I haven't written anything in a while I know, I'm sorry. Anyway Since I last posted I’ve seen my new little nephew again. He is such a sweet sweet baby! I have now nicknamed him “Mumble” because of the movie Happy Feet. He moves his legs around a lot which made me think of dancing and then it reminded me of Mumbles when he was first hatched, so… yeah he’s my little Mumble! I also got to see my cousin Anna graduate from NMSU which I am so proud of her for doing, I know it might have been very hard. My little Mason has been really busy in May. He was Jason (I believe) in the High School Musical play at Camey. He was so cute hehe! Then that same week he got baptized! I am so very proud of him he is such a great boy. Other than that I’ve just been hanging at home and with Anthony. I have been going to the Grapevine Lake and having cook-outs with Jesus and his friends quite a bit. It’s SOOO much fun!

Mom got little Sammy this swing and I think it's the best thing EVER! He loves to put his arms behind his head it's just so adorable!

I LOVE THIS PICTURE!!!!! It's actually a video I tried to get of him snoring but it didn't really turn out.

He loves his thumb! Though he is still working on getting it in, he hasn't quite got it all down yet.

Here's JD, Jamie, Aunt Shirley and little Sammy at Anna's graduation. Due to The Artist (Anna) not liking her picture taken I will not post any of the pictures I took of her.

On the drive home with Aunt Linda, we made a stop at a rest area and I just thought that was kind of funny.. no??

Here is little Gracie with her big hazel eyes. I'm so jealous!

I believe this was the first time at the lake. It was beautiful.

Not my best picture but here is me and my babe at the lake... that's make-up under my eye just FYI.

Here is Mason's play. He did great!

The post-play pictures. I think Masons cheeks went numb after all the smiling.

Here is Mason at church right before the service. He is sooo tan...I'm jealous again!

Kate and Debi our other Mom :)

Mason and Kate of course

I think the kids had had enough of smiling for pictures lol

Kate and Leslie who is our other sister ;)

RUN FOR COVER!!

2008-04-11T07:35:00.000-07:00

As I am sure you all are aware we had a HUGE storm Wensday into Thursday morning. It trailed from southern Oklahoma to I believe just past Waco. I ended up waking up Mom when it started getting really bad. I swear they were saying something about a tornado and it coming through Farmers Branch. So I look outside and I can't even see the neighbors house across the street! I grabbed a blanket and sat in the hallway with my two dogs. Poor little Molly was laying across one of my legs shivering under the cover while Sassy refused to leave my side. Mom had to verbally slap some sence into me cause I had started to cry. I must admit that now it was pretty funny. Poor Jesus was out working at DFW airport (he power washes parking lots and etc) and Anthony doesn't have a TV and had no clue anything was going on. I tell ya what, I don't know what I'm going to do with my boys. Anyway we all made it out alright with just a couple very minor damages to the house. We got so very lucky. .... As always here are some pictures!! (I have an addiction to pictures sorry!)

Me Sassy and Jesus checking out the damages.. notice how that little grill is just fine!!

Well it was on the brink of falling over away.

Now this was a surprise!!

The creek by our house was going nuts!

And here are some cute pics I just want to show ya!!

I really don't know why but she loves watching the toilet water when it flushes.

AWWW!!

Sassy sniffing Anthony

FINALLY a cute picture of us... I think anyway...

my ring heehhehehe I like it :) ... and just for the record I am wearing a tank top so don't freak out!

moody

2008-04-05T15:55:00.000-07:00

So, I'll go ahead and warn you now I'm not in a very good mood. So this will be a venting post. It's funny that this comes out of my own mouth (well finger tips) but I almost wish everyone looked the same. That way everyone would stop being so dang wrapped up in how they look. I'm sick of people saying 'oh don't show that to anyone I don't like how I look". Or they don't want their picture taken. I mean I can't say that I haven't done it but I'm trying to deal with it and I just wish everyone would as well. We might not be the happiest people on the planet but we'd feel a lot better. There are no 'ugly' people on this planet, only ugly personalities. If you are a good hearted person it will show, and you will be beautiful. But if you're shallow and a 'witch' then that to me makes you hideous. And if you're worried I'm gonna show a unflattering picture where you might have a double chin or show a roll or maybe a night when we had too many drinks.. maybe you change that or don't do it. And I mean that for a lot of people who I take pictures of. Everyone should stop being so worried about how they look and start enjoying whats going on around them. Life is too short. I can already tell time is starting to fly by as I get older and its only going to faster. Why waste it on worrying about how you look. And I'm not saying don't bother putting on make up before you go out or looking in the mirror to make sure you look alright because that is what makes us feel good. Just don't worry that you might not look like Angelina in the picture you took with you and your friends, or cousins or sisters because all that picture is, is to represent a really good time you had and that you should remember it. And like I said I'm obviously guilty of it too.. but now I'm just so "what's the point" about it. I'm beautiful in my own way and I really think everyone is too.

Also, the reason I picked Janeane for Kate is because I think she's very unique in the way that Kate is. Also I think their beauty is not any very day beauty. It's one that if you passed them by, you'd pause and think about them for a moment as if they were a beautiful art piece you'd never seen before. So, I am sorry if shes more dull and not a pretty as the other people you mentioned Kate, but for me it meant something.

There's something else that I'm very not happy about. That would be my weight. Obviously I've been very over weight for quite some time but now it has just gone too far. A few years ago I was at a theme park, can't remember which but its no matter, however I got on a roller coaster and they couldn't put down the restraint bar because of my belly. I just said that I would get off. As I waited for my party some little kids called me fatty and what not. I just shrugged it off and said roller coasters are overrated. But now my weight is just too much. On the flight to go see my beautiful nephew I had to ask for a extender for the seat beat. I have never had to do that before. So, I've told myself that I had to lose enough weight, that when I go see my cousin (whom I'm so proud of) graduate in May, I could use only ONE seat belt! And maybe hopefully be a little more comfortable in the seats. So, please pray and wish me luck!

I hope this hasn't hurt anyones feelings I didn't mean it to, I just want everyone to be happy with themselves... me included. I love you all!

Hollywood here i come!

2008-04-04T11:38:00.000-07:00

So for a while now I've decided I wanted to write a book on my life. I think it would completely relate to tons of people. It would make you laugh, make you cry, hopefully inspire people. But then I thought, hmmmm!, if it was made into a movie who would I have play the parts of my family and friends what not. So the search is on!! For a couple people I already had some celebs in mind, like for Mom and Aunt Shirley but for the rest I had the help of Anthony and this really cool website. http://www.myheritage.com/celebrity-face-recognition?collage=1
You can upload your picture and it will tell you which celebs you look like. Anyhow, here is my list so far. If you can think of anyone let me know!

(if they are left blank obviously I need a little help!)
Mom: Diane Keatan (I can't watch a movie with her in it without thinking its her)
Younger Mom:
Dad:
Younger Dad:
Kate: Janeane Garofalo (I love ganeane!)
Mason: Cameron Bright ("The cure" from the last X-Men movie)
Kaylee:
Older Kaylee: Hayden Panettiere
Gracie: Dakota Fanning (is so too old?)
Older Gracie: Camilla Belle
Aunt Shirley: Meg Ryan (same adorable laugh, and they also give the same vibe)
Auntie:
Aunt Linda:
JD (as a teen): maybe Travis Barker (drummer for Blink182)
JD (in college): Michael Vartan
JD (now): Jim Carrey.. (something in their faces are similar and i love their since of humor)
Jamie: (noone looks or IS sweet enough to play Jamie!)
Jesus: Noel G (you'll probably have to look him up)
Anthony: Antonio Sabato Jr.
Matt: Ryan Reynolds (they have the same quick wit)
Maddie:
Nicole: okay I don't know the actresses name but its Kimmy Gibler from Full House

So I know I'm missing lots of people on that list but yeah.. let me know what cha think!

crazy busy!

2008-04-02T12:43:00.000-07:00

So the past couple of weeks were kind of crazy. About two weeks ago I got really sick with this cold/allergy thing. I can't drink milk or have ice cream. For some reason whenever I drink/eat too much (which isn't THAT much) I start getting a cough and what not. And of course my health insurance just ran out so I can't go to the doctor. But I just stayed in bed and my honey got me some chicken noodle soup. Then I got better just in time for my birthday party. We had a BBQ at a park close to our house and then we played softball. We didn't have teams because some people couldn't make it or had to leave early but it was still a lot of fun. There was Mason, Kaylee, and Gracie along with me Kate and our cousin Maddie. I was most surprised when Aunt Shirley walked up and started playing too!! We just took turns at bat starting youngest to oldest. It was so much fun. OH and Mom bought me the most beautiful purple pinkish lei from her trip to Hawaii. I also got real pearl necklace and bracelet from her as well. Kate and the kids got me a very nice shower set with shower gel and lotion and bath confetti. Sadly I don't have a tub so I'll have to take that on a vacation! Auntie and Aunt Shirley gave me wonderful cards and in Aunt Shirleys was some money which I totally didn't want her to do. However it got me my memory card reader so I am very grateful. So then the next day was Easter. Mom made a ham ( I LOOOVE HAM!) and lamb cake!! After all that good eatin' we were too full to hide the eggs! So we go home and I'm pretty sure I passed right out heh and Mom wakes me up Monday morning around 6 I believe saying Kate's dad was sick and if I would watch the kids. And of course I'm always up for it. So I made me a lunch so I didn't have to eat up Kate's food, took Mom to work, went to Kate's work and got the kids then we went to Fry's. The kids played Rock Band, it was SO cute. So that's when I got my card reader and we came back to my house. It was so cool I got to upload pics from my other camera which is broken and I figured I lost those pictures forever. So anyway I ended up watching the kids the next day so Kate's dad good relax and get over his flu or whatnot. Well about the time I picked up Mason and Kaylee I started not feeling well. I ended up with this huge like fever blister and a stomach ache. When I got home I tried to sleep it off which was working for a while but then it all just went down hill. I won't go into detail 'cause it was just GROSS but it was a very horrible night for me. I don't think I've ever been sick like that. And on top of that the fever blister on my upper lip swelled up like crazy. Then the next morning I had to pick Mom up from the airport but by that time I wasn't as sick thank goodness. We still aren't sure whether it was the bug that Mason and Kate's dad had or if it was from my food I had packed the day before and left out for maybe a little too long. Either way it sucked! So once again just in time I started feeling good enough to go see my brother and sister and my new little nephew. I had such a blast! I was so happy Mom could finally see what I was always rambling on about when I came back from my trips. Oh and my goodness my little nephew is such a beautiful little boy. Not to brag but I think he really digs his Aunt Sarah. He kept looking at me and followed me around with his eyes a bit. And it may have just been gas but I think he was smiling at me. haha. I got to feed him and burp him a little bit but was a little too scared I'd break him so his momma had to take over. We got to have some awesome Mexican food while we were there as well. Pepe's and El Commodore (is that how you spell it??) and then this little place that has really great frozen yogurt. I also hung out with my cousin Anna a little bit as well which I always love to do. Over all these past two weeks have been... well.. really great yet really not great hehe. Enough yapping now I'll show the pics.

Alright so this is Kaylee, my mom, Gracie and Mason at my BBQ.

This is Auntie, my cousin Matt and his daughter Maddie.

me with my beautiful lei

The kids playing Rock Band. They each took turns playing all the instruments.

Here's Jamie when we went to New Mexico and of course they're little bundle of joy Sammy or Sam or Samuel whichever you prefer.

Here's JD walking around outside with Sammy. I think this is a really good picture.

And this is my most favorite. JD's on the swing singing to Sammy and little Sammy is loving it.

Look at this little one hold is own bottle. He still can't do it for very long but I'm sure that's gonna change in no time.

I tried to get a pic of us together but it wasn't going very well.. but he still looks adorable!

This is Sammy on Grandma's lap looking at his Mommy and Daddy.

Here's a better shot of them.

This is in the backyard/sideyard lol up above is a vineyard thing going on.

My MOMMY!! She's beautiful.

JD is part of a very secret part of the military called the leopard berets. Actually it's a shower cap I had just bought.

this is just a uber cool car we saw on the way back to the airport.

This was on the way to JD and Jamie's house and you can go through the mountains.

LAS CRUCES

This is just a water reserve that I thought was cool lookin'.

This picture does not do the tree justice. New Mexico is kind of dark with lots of browns and tans and what not and then there is this beautiful tree.

Top half of the state flower which is called a Yucca.

This is apparently where Billy The Kid was put in jail.. i think...

This is the other way to get to and from the airport which passes right next to Mexico and well... this is Mexico!

I promise from now on I'll try to keep them shorter!!

Picture Time!

2008-03-22T02:55:00.000-07:00

Here are some pictures so everyone knows who I am speaking of!

Here is Jesus and I. I can never seem to get a good picture of us.

Okay so he would probably kill me if he knew this was on here. But I LOVE this picture because it reminds me of Chris Perez from the Selena movie which happens to be one of my favorite movies and shes one of my favorite singers too.

This is miss Molly. She's just like her mama she blinks in pictures too!

This is my partner in crime Anthony and I. I think this was his birthday.

My two favorite boys Jesus and Anthony. We're at Humperdinks.

Me and my sister being goofy. It happens a lot!

..See what I mean..

My little Sassy. Her alter ego is BAT DOG!

This is me when I was really little and my Daddy.

Little Luna. She loves da mama.

...And last but not least.... Two of the COOLEST chicks you will ever meet! My cousin Anna and I. Dang we're cute!!

NEWBIE

2008-03-19T07:09:00.000-07:00

So, first blog. Guess I should catch everyone up on my past so you can understand me now. I was a very cute toddler, I was brought up on New Kids on The Block and George Jones. I'm what my mom would call a "night owl" because of all the late nights i spent up with my dad and my brother when he was here. Sadly, most of my memories growing up are in a negative light. From a early age I started having to deal with stuff some adults probably still haven't had to deal with. I've dealt with my granddaddy and him being sick and finally his life coming to a end. The bickering of my parents whom I love so much. Also when I was, I believe, in the fourth grade my brother got in a horrible painting accident and the doctors didn't seem to give him much hope, at least not in my eyes. I almost lost one of my best friends. Then after his amazing miracle of getting better and walking again, we grew apart. That was my fault though. Gotta love preteen/teen anger. Now I sit back green with envy because sometimes it seems my cousin is closer to my brother than I am. I must say though, my worst tragedy to date would be losing my dad. I have got to be one of the biggest daddy's girls in the world. He was my hero. The smartest man I'll ever know. I never thought I'd see him go, he was invincible. I would be up late at night sitting in his lap eating ice cream. Or watching a rated R movie and he would just cover my eyes during 'naughty' scenes. I remember the last time I felt comforted. It was one night at the hospital. My mom and I think my aunts were there. Then My Sister in law Jamie, my brother JD and my sister Kate and I all slept on the floor with me between my big brother and big sister. Then the next day I held my dads hand as he took his last breaths. I was only 16 at the time. I was never good in school and after that it just seemed impossible. Sadly I took the easy way out and dropped out of school. Now don't get me wrong, I know I don't have it as bad as other people. There's lots of people who have it 20 times worse. And I mean there are some really good times I've had. I've traveled to so many places thanks to my mom being a flight attendant. Places like Miami, Orlando (Disney World IS AWESOME!), Arvada Co., LA!, been to Las Vegas twice now, Las Cruces NM to see my brother and sister and cousin Anna, Chicago, Milwaukee to swing dance, Oklahoma where my dads side is from, Mexico thanks to my brother and sister. Oh, and if you ever get the chance to come to Texas I suggest Austin! Wonderful sights to see, awesome bars on 6th street, and a great music scene. There's always something going on and it's something to remember. If you're ever in Oklahoma on the last weekend of April you have to hit up the Rattle Snake Festival! There are games you can play, rides, FUNNEL CAKE, you can hold a rattle snake and get your picture taken.. don't worry the mouth is sewn shut...and I believe you can go hunt for them. Lets see, what else about moi. I guess I'll bring you up to now. I am 22, still living with my mom. I have a fiance Jesus, who I constantly fight with. Though if you look at our childhoods that's what we were grew up on. My sister has a son and two daughters who I love and treat as my own. We just took a trip to College Station where my nephew's team got SECOND at STATE!!.. of course he played about two minutes of the whole thing. My first niece is a total heart breaker and shes only in first grade. Oh and I think she might actually be part monkey; shes always hanging off of something. My baby niece is totally me. She just kinda does her own thing since shes the youngest, loves to sing and LOUD. And now about two months ago my brother and sister adopted the most handsome little boy. I'm excited that I will hopefully be seeing him next week. Its kinda crazy he looks a little like dad. It's a little saddening to know I won't get to see him every day like my sisters kids. In my life I also have my friend and soul mate Anthony. You will hear LOTS about him. He is my partner in crime. I haven't really mentioned my mom. It used to be anything that came out of our mouths would be in a loud volume. Once again, mostly my fault. THOUGH, she IS as hard headed as I am. But now I think we are very close. She's probably one of my best friends. I also have three more mothers: Auntie, Aunt Shirley and Aunt Linda. Um, I hate animal cruelty.. so much that I refuse to watch movies with dogs in them because most of the time they get hurt or killed. However I eat meat. But I'm from Texas so can't really not eat it. I have two dogs Sassy Ann and Molly Andrea and a cat named Luna Lee. I also cry when i see a dog running in the streets and I break for anything that's trying to cross the road. Once there was a turtle and I made my friend get out and put it on the sidewalk.. then made her get back out and put it on the other side that was next to the creek. haha. I love to sing and go places and see new things. I love making plans but am not too good a caring them out. I have lots of tattoos and hate being asked how many I have 'cause if you can't tell by looking then there are too many. and YES it hurts! It's not like it feels like a feather tickling you. I used to look like a 'pin cushion' with tons of piercings too. I like to think I've calmed down from that point and only have like fourish. I'm a sap for love songs and girly movies. Though I do like scary goreish movies at times. I love playing The Sims.. well actually I'm quite addicted. And I love my sniper riffle in Halo 1 and 2. (haven't played the 3rd yet :( ) Oh and I'm a horrible speller, so thank goodness for spell check. I also drink on occasion though it seems I drank more when I wasn't of age than now. More than likely you can find a cigarette in my hand and I have a terrible habit of cussing which I don't usually mean to insult anyone by. To me they are just words. I also like to over use comma's, add ISH to the end of everything and make up my own words. Is that too much for a first blog? oh well, now when your like "why is cera like that, or do those things" maybe this will help a bit. or not.